Thursday, April 15, 2021

6

The rain eases.
A black-capped
chickadee trills
joy, screams relief.
So brash! The leaves clap
and encourage her thrill.


Saturday, April 3, 2021

5

(Photo by Taslima Akhter)

The sea of stone 
in which they swim 
cements the lovers' 
embrace. 
                One wave's 
weight breaks 
her back. 
                The death-
grip strain stains his 
cheek, a final tear 
of blood.


Wednesday, March 31, 2021

4

Daybreak exhumes
the edifice out of the night
and lights its many gilded eyes.


Friday, March 26, 2021

3

The river thunders. 
In fits, the mist lifts over
the bridge, and a hierarchy
of green climbs the cliffs
till crowning the falls.
Dr. Williams, do these
things hold ideas?


Friday, March 19, 2021

Thursday, March 18, 2021

1

I'm starting a series of small poems that are pictures, real or imagined.

My window 
frames you, dove, 
frozen above 
the naked oak.


Thursday, December 24, 2020

Notes

Journal Excerpts

1

I'm open and fragile this morning. I've nearly cried twice on my commute--while walking to the train in Queens and seeing the face of the sunlit, brick building behind the passing elevated train as Neil Young's "Harvest Moon" played over my earphones, and then while exiting the underground when Leonard Cohen's "Famous Blue Raincoat" (The line: "New York is cold, but I like where I'm living") lead me back into the early morning sunlight.

Sobriety is funny. I feel less sober with my emotions somehow; maybe I'm more tender, maybe I'm really feeling some emotions for the first time in a while.

2

Ecclesiastes 7:3-4

Sorrow is better than laughter:
for by sadness of the countenance
the heart is made better.

The heart of the wise is in the house
of mourning; but the heart of fools 
is in the house of mirth.

3

Just caught my reflection while looking out the window--hands together at the fingertips and thumbs under chin. I felt like a poser, sitting over an open journal and latte at a French bistro. I can't help but be myself, and I'm always self conscious of being me. I don't want to appear to be an affected artist. Ugh. This fucking dialogue has persisted since I was a teenager, and my self effacing has hindered me as much as my self aggrandizing.

That's me. I'll accept it now and will have to do it again in the near future. We can't escape ourselves, and if we do, we lose sanity.

4

I'm at New York City Bagel and Coffee House and annoyed by these twenty-something girls' giggling and talking as if they knew something, but they're just talking about school days, lame jobs, and boys. I haven't looked at them, but their voices are cute. Their pronunciation is good, no affected vocal fry, no click-ish speech patterns, no excessive uses of "like" as filler. Wait, disregard that one. In an attempt at being kind after belittling them, I went too far.

Now I'm getting kicked off the sidewalk because the cafe is closing.

5

In the cool of the morning, I stepped onto the street after little but enough sleep. The sun had just broken the horizon and lit the building windows orange. Clumsy waking neighbors trailed their eager dogs with bags of shit. An infant strapped to her mother's shoulder slept while the woman waddled, happy to be outside for the first time in days.

After miles of walking past deli-store owners smoking cigars, garbage men trailing the truck, sleek sweating joggers, an older woman confused by her coffee order at the bodega, a young late-night partier sleeping it off in evening dress in the street, I thought, "How lovely this mad, beautiful, silly city.”


Saturday, December 19, 2020

Milestone

I'm now old enough to smell the aged, book smell of a book that I had purchased new.



Thursday, November 19, 2020

Unfinished Poem

I never finished this poem, but I like it. I may yet finish it. At the time I was reading Blake's Marriage of Heaven and Hell and a lot of Yeats; that's the only way I can explain it's being different from anything else I've written. 


[Untitled]

Crucifying on Tarot's Celtic cross,
the Devil tells me, "Scorpio, you've stung
your head with the winged visions from the eyelids
of the dead." A kaleidoscope flutters

terror through me . . .

Wednesday, September 16, 2020

Incomplete Idea #4

Each moment blooms eternally but needs a pinch of consciousness to exist.



Saturday, October 5, 2019

Music Making

Barefooted by a Missouri river,
you finger pick your steel-string.
A weary caravan procession
carrying your only possessions,
memories, stirs the dust off
your dirt-road throat.

Your children doddle in a distant
yard. The sister lifts her face
to the falling, grape-like, clematis
blooms under the window of the dining
room. Her brother kicks the seedlings
spinning off the daisies.

Though the physician's incision
sprouted her hair, he grabbed
your son instead, giving him
the first born's burden.

Underfoot the twins would
chirp sounds only they understood.
You'd scold them to use words
and receive their tea-saucer stares.

On the couch with a neighbor,
your two-year-old daughter, kung-fu
gripped his temple, jealous of Daddy's
attention. You laughed at her ferocious precision.

You'd often return home prune-skinned
and silent, having rinsed your day
down restaurant drains, and your groggy-eyed
boy would greet you and fake a high
laugh to brighten your face.

Above the rippling water, your young
son and daughter mingle among the tired
travelers, who follow your song in search of home.


Thursday, September 26, 2019

A Brick Facade Flowers

A brick facade flowers
between us. You're no
longer naked. While I
slept, you clothed and watched
my sex shiver erect, you
tell me. I'm praying
for a sea surge to break
this levy. Can you conjure
our last tender embrace?
Your aroma, Lilac
and Lavender, covers our
celibate sheets and still grips
me. Stop. You're discarding
our union's remaining fruit.
Hand me a single seed. I'll bury
it in my hollow heart. I'll sun
and shower it back to life myself, alone.
You're pressing your cold feet against
my thigh. There's no kindness.
You're pushing off shore.
Though I know you're taking
the worst of me, I'll miss you.
The waves rise and the levy
falls. We're capsized.